To fully embrace the present moment, we must cultivate an awareness of our inner world—our thoughts and emotions—and create a space between them and ourselves. Recognizing that these are merely experiences we undergo is crucial. Without this understanding, the relentless activity of the mind will dominate us, pulling us away from the present, and we will never experience true freedom.

By leveraging the Bluemosaic app and Practices in Presence, we establish a separation between ourselves and our thoughts and emotions. This enables us to quiet the mind and focus on the present. By becoming observers of our experiences rather than constant thinkers, and by developing a sensitivity to shifts in energy, we can quickly recognize when we’ve drifted from the present moment and bring ourselves back.

I’m Jeffrey, the creator of Bluemosaic. Bluemosaic is the result of my dream to express my love and to help people overcome the suffering and darkness that I experienced after becoming lost and consumed by my thoughts and emotions. To tell the story of Bluemosaic, I must first tell you a story about myself.

When I was a child, I was shy. Although I was very happy, loved to play, and had a rich imagination, I began to feel immense pressure from my peers, authority figures, and culture to change. I was picked on and felt ‘different’ from others.

When I was 13, I was convinced I needed to become ‘more powerful’ and ‘alpha’ because I believed that was the only way I could survive and thrive in this world. So, I created an ego personality that I thought was myself. This personality was sarcastic, aggressive, and often rude and inconsiderate (apologies to those who had to deal with my difficult behavior back then). I felt more in control of my life and received affirmation from people I looked up to, so I was convinced this was the right path forward.

Twenty-two years went by. On the surface, I was getting the things I wanted. I had built a successful career, had a good amount of power and money for my age, and had plenty of friends, but deep down none of this satisfied me for long. I was often depressed and angry. I didn’t realize it at the time, but my soul had been buried and I was wearing the mask of a strong ego. My heart was sad.

Thoughts were incessant during this time, always fearing, analyzing, misunderstanding, and judging—fueled by a desire for perfection. I believed they were me talking to myself, and that they were keeping me safe and helping me, but neither was true. They caused a lot of suffering. They were endless and often went on under the surface of my awareness. I numbed myself to cope with them and the heavy feelings.

Then came the moment that my ego could take me no further. It exploded in a fiery blaze at a company retreat where I verbally sparred with the CEO in front of everyone and abruptly quit.

I couldn’t get a new job for months and nearly went totally broke. The stress was immense. I started to meditate every day, for longer and longer periods. Something cracked within me. I began to look at my life and it dawned on me that this really wasn’t who I was. How did I get here? Then slowly I began to put it all together, and I began the process of mourning and then fully tearing everything down. It was like a forest fire burning away decades of dead wood. I drifted away from friends and isolated myself as I began a long process of creating space between me and my thoughts, to begin dissolving the old beliefs, processing all of the pain, and exploring the unseen.

For two years I went through what some call the dark night of the soul. I suffered a great deal with the realization of what had happened, what I’d done, the choices I had made, and the time that had gone by.

Then from the ashes, wildflowers began to grow. I shed the mask and began to love myself again. I felt peace. I saw the purpose of my past. I began to utilize my mind as an instrument rather than allow it to consume my consciousness. Then I began to feel a magnetic pull to build something that had the chance to unite and help heal other people. Years later, here we are.

I love you for being here. I hope the videos and the app help you on your journey and that you feel my love and the love of the Universe/God/Source.

May we all be free and may we all feel love.